I am a 29 year old female who is going to turn 30 this year. During my 20s, I spent 7 years in tertiary education. I got a Higher Diploma in PR (2 years) and a Bachelor degree in Nursing (4 years) plus a year of defer due to failure in nursing practicum.

Just like many people, entering university was my aim in secondary school but I was not sure what I want to do for living, nor really put effort in any job in that period. Therefore when opportunity come, I chose a nursing degree which could guarantee stability of income and seemed more valuable, rather than English literature degree which was my passion but without clear job direction and guarantee.

I started work as a nurse since July 2011, and till now, I changed my job 3 times and the 4th time is coming. I needed to put big effort in adapting and it was basically a brain-damaged experience for me. I was found out not competent and not suitable for the fast-paced medical field. Even worse, in the deepest, I knew myself resistant to basic nursing skills like inserting foley or injection. Some colleagues even suspect I have concentration problem and suggest me see a doctor.

For years I knew I was depressed. And for years, I was trying to fit into some work that I am not capable no matter how I work on or simply people around me don’t give me tolerance. I finally come to conclusion that I will stop trying as I have no way to go and the only right direction to my happiness is, maybe leaving the industry.

Here are my thoughts:

1.    Find a whatever job, aiming 12-4K per month and do part-time private nursing to supplement income.
2.    Find a part-time job to get experienced, equip myself with skills by revising Mandarin, English & Chinese typing. Further my qualification in field such as translation or journalism in fall 2014.

My biggest worry is still stability. I want to lead a happier life and develop potentials. Could you give me some advice? I don’t want my effort become futile.

I have devoted nearly 7 years in tertiary education and I started work as a registered nurse since July 2011. I switched work 3 times and now the fourth time is coming.

Like lots of people, I was not sure what I want to do in my young age, therefore I chose to persuit a degree which could guarantee stability of income despite my passion.

Since I start work in nursing, I needed to put big effort in adapting and it was basically a brain-damaged experience for me. My ability and temperament was also not suitable for the fast-paced environment. Even worse, in the deepest, I knew myself resistant to basic nursing skills like inserting foley or injection.  I am also a not reliable person and some colleagues doubt I have problem in concentration.